Monday, December 31, 2012

Minutes Before Midnight

It is less than an hour before the beginning of 2013.I'm not really excited about it.It''s just another year that I get older,another year things getter harder,another year where I'm not happy.At the moment I have been pretty down as you can probably tell.I don't know whats wrong with me it just feels like everything in life sucks and I wish i could fall into a coma until the rapture comes. I decided this year I'm gonna try to make a resolution.I was successful once and last year i didn't make one.I've decided to be more outgoing. I'm going to force myself into stressful situations. I am going to make an effort with my friends. I have become a hermit. I don't like being with anyone which is bad. I get so annoyed so easily which is something I need to control.

Friday, December 21, 2012

It Happened Again

i had another dream with him in it.i didn't see him i just heard his was so terrible but i loved it at the same time.I just got back from haging out with my Uncle Tim and Brandon.It just goes to show I don't really know who Brandon really is. My currecnt obssesion is Ewan Mcgregor.I am getting super pumped for Christmas I really hope I get the Owl City Merch I wanted. I also tried caviar nail beads for the first time. They are very pretty but super annoying!

Friday, December 14, 2012

He Loves You!

simply amazing
Falling Plates

Winter Break Extended Addition

Today is my last day of school and then I am off for winter break! Unlike the rest of my peers I will not be coming back to take finals and have a Christmas party. I get to stay home and do whatever I feel like. I'm very happy but I don't want to waste my break. I want to do things. I know I will be hanging out with my mom A LOT. We were going to go see a friend but it didn't work out:( I know we will be doing a lot of baking but that's all I know. I think for break I am going to cut myself off from my friends as much as possible. Which means no texting,calling, making plans, possibly staying off Facebook and if I do get on I will try not to respond or post anything. I just want to get away from it all. I think the hardest part about the season will be staying on my diet. I know people say all the time to never diet on the holidays but I've not lost any weight and I don't want to gain any. I just have to remember to eat in moderation and hope it will be enough along with exercise.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Rudolph Clones

Her's another Christmas mani!Unfortunately they smudged when i put the top coat on but they are still pretty cool
Avon: Strawberry Fraise
Avon: Mink Vision
Avon Illusion Illusion
Sinful Colors: Out Of This World
Sinful Colors: Go Go Girl
Sally Hansen Extreme Wear: Grey Area
Quick Dry Clear coat
White/black nail pen

Neglecting News

So I've been neglecting my blog recently.
I haven't been able to do Daily December pics because I don't have my own camera.
I plan on doing a festive manicure tonight to hopefully there will be a post about that.
Lately I have been pretty upset by the people around me.
I also have finals soon but I'm taking them early because I plan to leave town this upcoming weekend.
A boy I used to go to school with proclaimed his love for me even though we barely talk to each other.
I'm still struggling to lose weight.
I'm sad because there hasn't been any snow.
My friend finally go her baby hedgehog:)I might get to see it tomorrow!

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Daily December- Little Picasso

Today I took pictures of a drawing I made when I was younger. It was for my babysitters but for some reason a year or so ago they gave it back to me. Maybe they didn't want a Grinch in their house:)

Monday, December 3, 2012

Daily December-Hot Cocoa

Well it's December 3rd and I know I missed a couple days but i will catch up!Heer's today's pictures.

Ways To Make Christmas Spectacular!

  1. Upload all your favorite Christmas songs onto your iPod and make a special playlist with them.
  2. Bake & decorate Christmas cookies.
  3. Give those cookies to others.
  4. Eat the cookies yourself (as many as you want).
  5. Wear comfy clothing such as slippers,sweaters,hats,pajamas,etc.
  6. Drink hot beverages such as your favorite hot cocoa or coffee.
  7. Eat truck loads of candy.
  8. Decorate with Christmas lights on the outside and inside of your home.
  9. Find out what people want for Christmas and try to get it for them.
  10. Wrap those presents with awesome paper (don't put them in bags or pre-made boxes that ruins the fun of opening gifts). 
  11. Watch Christmas movies.
  12. Cut out Paper snowflakes.
  13. Take pictures/videos of holiday things that are going on around you.
  14. Shovel someone else's sidewalk.
  15. Paint a festive manicure.
  16. Take a walk in the snow.
  17. Go for a drive to look at Christmas Lights.
  18. Build something majestic in the snow.
  19. Go hot tubbing in the cold.
  20. Ice skate at a public place or on a lake (or just try to slide across a parking lot in your normal shoes).
  21. Invest in a good set of mittens/gloves & boots(spray you boots with waterproof stuff).
  22. Burn candles.
  23. Try to come up with 5 things you are thankful for this season every day of December.
  24. Smile at strangers.
  25. Keep in mind the real reason for the season.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Confetti Conifers

TADAH! My first Christmas Manicure!Finally it's been forever since I've done a nail post I hope you enjoy<3

Avon: Strawberry
Clairs Cosmetics: Disco
Quick Dry Clear Coat
Random Dark Solid Green

Friday, November 30, 2012

Peppermint Winter Weekend

So this weekend i decided i wanted to have a Christmas weekend.I want to put up the rest of the lights,drink hot cocoa and cranberry sierra mist,watch Christmas themed movies and shows,listen to holiday music, wrap presents,paint a Christmas manicure,and wear pajamas and ugly sweaters:)I plan on watching all the Doctor Who episodes that are Christmas-ish.Hopefully i will get to do this with one of my friends but if i don't that's okay too.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Winter Girls

So I came across a book called Winter Girls. I was on Tumblr and a girl i follow posted something about anorexia. One of the tags was #wintergirls. I thought that was an odd tag so I clicked on it. Apparently This book is quite insane. I read a few passages from it and I now want to actually read it. It's about pair of friends that vow to be the skinniest girls in their school. One girl does this through bulimia and one through anorexia. Since I know people who have gone through(and are still) anorexic it really gets to me. My mom is worried that i will become anorexic because premature children have a tendency to fall into eating disorders. I am actually quite afraid myself because I don't want that to happen to me but I can see how it could happen because I am so insecure about my body. But when I think about it I could never do that to my friends and family. I would never want to put them through watching me slowly kill myself. As much as I want to be thin I will not give into not eating. Watching people I know who did this really helps because I got to see how their lives changed(and not for the better). I want to be healthy and strong and starving yourself may seem like the easy way out but it will get you nowhere in the end.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Dreams or Nightmares?

I had another dream with him in it....i can't decide whether i hate them or love them.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Have Your Cake And Eat It Too...I Wish

Well for Thanksgiving this year I am going to try to make Pumpkin Balls. My mom just bought a cake pop machine and I had the idea to instead of making boring regular Pumpkin Bars I would jazz it up make them round and inject them with frosting! I don't know if it will work though. The only downside is that I am dieting and I won't be able to enjoy them. I have been on my diet for around three months I believe and I haven't lost any weight. I have slipped up and ate what I wanted a few times but it's hard to diet especially when everyone around you gets to eat what they want. I want to make eating right a way of life and not a chore. I want to stay determined because I am sick of not being happy with my appearance. I don't want to be obsessive about it but I feel like I am sometimes. I guess my goal is to be able to feel pretty by the time I graduate so I can wear a dress and feel comfortable.

Friday, November 16, 2012


So it's Friday and I'm so happy for the weekend after our little incident at school.i miss my friends but things went better than i expected was more calm and self sufficient. I think I'll be OK as long as no one else abandons ship. On a brighter note i put uo my christmas decorations in my room so when I come home I feel better:)

Thursday, November 15, 2012

How Does One Continue?

how does a person who had a lovely bunch of friends surrounding her at school go on when they dissapear?teenagers look forward to school because they have friends to see. if they didn't it just feels like a lonley prison.they are the times i wish i could go be a traveller so i could leave it all.

Sunday, November 11, 2012


so literally five minutes ago some guy(i think it was a teenager)walked to our house in the pouring rain and knocked on our door.I was scared and didn't answer it.He stayed a couple minutes then left.I now realize that I probably should have done something because now i want to know what he wanted.What was he doing?Why was he here?Why was he walking alone?This will eat me up inside.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Old Books

So latey i have had an urge to read alot and especiall Edgar Allen Poe. I found a REALLY old copie of some of his stories in my basement and I can't wat to read it.There is something about old books that is just so amazing and intelligent.They smell better too:)

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Thor Hobo

So this year for halloween I went as Thor and the rest of my friends went as the other members of the Avengers. It was quite fun and i ate waaaaaay too much candy:)soon i will have to go back on my diet:Pcandy/chocolate is my weakness.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

My Invader Zim Pumpkin

I did this little video just to show basically how I carve pumpkins.This took me forever and I stayed up til 2am finishing Enjoy!:)

Friday, October 26, 2012

When Can I See You Again?

so I was just browsing my facebook feed when SLAM-BAM -in -a Can!I see A Reck It Ralph music video for When Can I see You Again? by Owl City!I love it and i think it's quite cute and actually made me laugh a couple time seeing how dorky Adam Young is sometimes:)

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Cats Ride Ponies

so I can across this lovely cat picture
make of it what you will...

So Proud It Makes Me Happy

enjoying a hot cup of tea while downloading Sky Sailing onto my iPod<3im so proud of Adam Young!hes come so far.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

I've Been Thinking

I recently have been thinking if it would be a good idea to put some of my posts in video format.I think it would be pretty cool!so maybe there will be one soon

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Current Favorite Song

I was listening to  If My Heart Was A House by Owl City and I actually payed attention to the words and I really love them.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Is it Possible?

i have always wondered if it is possible to stay in bed all day?at least for me.and not when i am sick.i slept in til 4p.m. today and it's just one of those days that you want to either snuggle or explor:)it's rainy and leaves are falling i'ts so pretty.but today is a birthday of a long lost friend and I hope it is good for them and i don't overthink it.

Monday, October 8, 2012

The Screaming Sickness

well my friend isn't at school today because she has a soar throat and can barely speak apparently. I just think it's the after effect of the concert she was at.
i find my self wanting to watch anime recently but i don't know what to watch and what appropriate to watch. I love anime and manga but it seems like a lot of them are inappropriate.
i still don't have a job.this is bad because i need money badly.
i now like to wear knee-high/thigh-high socks.
i now like to wear foundation and powder on my face.
fall makes me happy and sad at the same time.
yeah so that is what has been going on:)

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Sad Weekend

Well to start off i had a dream about someone that made me upset(i keep having bad dreams for 2 weeks). Then my friends go to a concert that i would kill to go to today. All i get to do is trying applying for yet another job, take senior pictures in the freezing cold, make a paper mache cow, clean the house,and hear all about their great time together while i will have to try my best to be happy. I need to forget about this and do something to keep myself from being unhappy cause i hate it.bleh....i will make a list of good things!
  1. it was pretty outside
  2. i ate chocolate and cashews
  3. i got to go down my favorite slide
  4. i figured out how to transfere and convert music to my ipod
  5. i got a balloon for my cow
  6. i watched the avengers
  7. my nails look nice

Friday, September 28, 2012

Avenger Weekend

So i decided i wanted to have an Avengers weekend. I want to watch all the movies that have the different characters:

  • Iron man 1 & 2
  • Thor
  • Captain America
  • The Hulk
There is a couple problems though... There is no movie for Black Widow and Hawkeye  so i will probably just substitute and watch Mission Impossible 4 because Jeremy Renner (Hawkeye) is in it. Also I don't own any of The Incredible Hulk films so I will have to see if I can get it off of Netflix.
Of course after all of these I will watch The Avengers:) This movie was made very well and I can't wait for the second one.I am especially pumped for the second Thor movie. I can't wait to see what happens with Loki!

Thursday, September 27, 2012

My Favorite Things Currently/ Owl City Concert Fail

  • Owl City
  • Twighlight Woods fragrance
  • Doing Pilates
  • Skygazeing
I had the opportunity to go see Owl City in concert in Chicago Next weekend but all my dreams got crushed:'(yeah i haven't posted in awhile so this is a little weird

Friday, July 20, 2012

Possible Insomniac

well it's 5:30 am and i can't sleep.i'm at a friends house which doesn't help either.i don't feel the slightest bit tired and i should's 5:30 in the freaking morning. i slept til 2 in the afternoon which probably didn't help but i also didn't sleep all the way through the night. I didn't do much of anything except go to the store,gas station,and a drive-in movie to see Brave and The Amazing Spiderman. Brave had a strange was not what i was expecting at all. Of course spiderman was awesome but i already saw it so the second time around i just kinda gawked at Andrew Garfield which i found out was in 2 episodes of Doctor Who! The Daleks In Manhattan and The Evolution Of The Daleks.yeah so that was fun and when we came back to my friends house i drew the spiderman symbol on her wall because eventually we are going to be painting her walls hopefully soon. I have driver-ed next week and i am completely terrified.maybe it wont be so bad because my mom won't be there in the car.i also have to get a job soon as possible.that terrifies me too.who knew growing up was so intimidating?well i know i didn't until recently.i think i may have some type of insomnia.i looked it up and the symptoms seem to match up well.i think one big thing that will help me get back on track is waking up before 1pm and not taking a nap. also i have been having strange dreams about hiding kittens in my basement,zombie apocalypses, and being Loki's daughter or sister(i couldn't tell).iv'e been playing Dead Island so i'm thinking thats where the zombies came from.i don't know about the's a pic of what i drew.

Saturday, July 7, 2012

List Update #2

My Want List

  1. Chronicle
  2. Sherlock Holmes 2 (i bought for my grandpa for fathers day)
  3. To Have My Whole Head Dyed A Crazy Color
  4. Books(there are some other books i want)
  5. Laser Light
  6. Money
  7. Put A Design On My Skin With Sunscreen And Go Outside For Awhile (i tried i but didnt work and i dont go outside very much so i cant try it again)
  8. iTunes Gift Card
My To-do List

  1. Try To Exercise Everyday
  2. Loose Weight
  3. Eat Only When I'm Hungry
  4. Make A List Of All The Movies I Want To See
  5. Draw,Paint,Sketch More
  6. Get Over My Fear Of Driving
  7. Work Out The Kinks In Friendships
  8. Spend Time With Other Friends
  9. Finish The Hunger Games Trilogy
  10. Master The Art Of Making Origami Paper Cranes
  11. Drink More Water
  12. Choose Joy
  13. Learn How to "Basket Weave" A Shirt
  14. Also i now have a Tumbr account.YAY! so go follow me:)

Thursday, July 5, 2012

My Favorite Things

my favorite things currently
  1. Kickthepj
  2. Crabstickz
  3. Chipolte
  4. light blue nailpolish
  5. my kitties
  6. taking pictures of everything
  7. getting inspired artisticly
and here r some random pics:)


the inspiration of this mani is the cute little penguin named Fuzzwald off of kickthepj who is a british youtuber

the colors are:
  1. Avon:Vintage Blue
  2. SinfulColors:Black On Black
  3. Sinfulcolors:Snow ME White
  4. Fast dry clear coat
  5. Pink,Orange,White Art Pens

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Gram Cam

So since my camera has been broken for awhile now i finally had the brilliant idea to borrow my grandmas cam.i took some pics so i could get used to it:)