Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Welcome To Whitey's!

Ok guys it's official..i have my first job! Today is my 4th or 5th day of training and let me tell you there have been a whirl wind of emotions involved! There are SO many recipes to memorize and it has literally made me go insane like i have been having panic,anxiety,and hysteric crying. It has left me feeling really weird. But for some reason today i feel a bit more confident which may be because i tried a different approach with trying to memorize. I am trying a technique i used as a kid. I write down what i need to know several times in a row every night. Hopefully this will help. i know it will get better but it will get worse before that i fear.
On another note all HootOwls have suffered a loss that we just recently heard about. One of our other poor little HootOwls committed suicide in January:'( It's so sad to see somebody suffer so bad and  not be able to do anything about it or hear about it too late. My prayers are with her best friend that she left behind.

Thursday, February 28, 2013

First Interveiw

THANK THE LORD I HAVE LANDED AN INTERVIEW FOR WHITEYS ICE CREAM!i don't want to get my hopes up but i really really really REALLY need a job.i am so scared right now because it's my first interview and they will want to know why they should hire me,and i am terrible at finding good traits about myself. im going to be a wreck i know it!:P
kayleen is going to the Maroon 5, Neon Trees,and Owl City concert.she is going to try to get a couple things signed for really sucks having everyone around you even people that dont like owl city go to see him and i haven't been able too yet. I WAS SO CLOSE last summer to seeing him at Kings Island and i didn't even know he was going to be there! but noooo we had to leave:Pbooooo

Friday, February 22, 2013

Lord of the Rings Marathon

i just got all three lord of the rings movies and i am going to try to have a marathon over the weekend.i have never been able to get through all the movies so now i can! i don't know how long it will take me so i'm thinking that i'm going to take a nap when i get home so i wont run the risk of falling asleep during them.but then again i don't want to get into trouble so maybe that wont happen.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Just Being Polite?

so there's this boy....
and his family is very nice.
his mom likes to talk with my mom.
she said he enjoys talking to me.
the thing is however...we don't really talk.
is she just being nice or did he really say that?
if it's true then that would be lovely.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Zombie Lifestyle

So last weekend i went with my friends to see Warm Bodies!I't was so fun.I was expecting it to be really cheesy but it turned out rather cute<3 and i love R he's my new favorite lol
speaking of zombies...i kinda have been turning into one at least i was.
apparently in my quest to be skinny without knowing it i was starving myself.and now that it has been brought to my attention i feel so incredibly bad about it. I feel so much shame and i am now glad that i caught it. apparently i need around 1800 calories a day since i'm an active teenager. unfortunately i was aiming for around 900 to 1200 cal. i guess i thought that if i couldn't burn it off i couldn't eat it which wasn't exactly the case. hopefully now i will start to get healthy and skinny.I really want to be able to fit into a nice dress for graduation in may.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

I Survived The FOB Hiatus!

   Fallout boy is officially back making new music!their new song My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark (Light Em Up) is pretty darn fantastic i'm so glad they are working on a new album i just wish we didn't have to wait til may. My Chemical Romance's Number Five was released today!which also calls for celebration. I also hear Panic! at the Disco is working on a new album which it's about time guys! Last but not least Paramore has a new cd. I don't know if it has been released or not though. All we have left is for Adam Young to release Hey Anna and I Hope You Think Of Me.oh and We Came As Romans Released a new music video for Hope
   Because My Chem was releasing new tunes i was wandering around their tag on Tumblr when I came across this quote by Frank Iero. It was really inspiring considering i have been struggling quite a bit these days.
how could a person not love these guys?:)

yeah you can't:)

i mean come on look!

Friday, February 1, 2013

Party Hardy

Tonight I am going to a birthday party at a hotel. The girl who is having the party is...well.. interesting. I try to be nice to her and understand she is not like the rest of us. Luckily since I don't know her very well I have my other good friend to keep me company. I feel kinda bad for going to this party. First of all it was a last minute thing so it puts stress on everyone. Second, my mom told me that she wanted to sleep in,and that "if i could drive then it would't be such a bad thing",and she doesn't have money to get her a present. So that made me quite depressed. I will be going to get her a present and use my own money  even though I don't want to considering I don't have a job(which is why i can't get my license yet) and I don't want to waste my money on a girl I barely know. I really don't want this girl to feel like no body likes or cares about her and that's the main reason why I an going. I have to swim tonight with everyone which makes me nervous because of how insecure I am about my body.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Everyone Leaves

my friend told me today that she will be switching schools next week.i feel like everyone is abandoning me. and a lady who was really nice and would look out for me ever since i was in 7th grade left too.that leaves 2 classmates on a regular basis.and Jess to be kinda happy with.i only have 4 more months to get through until i graduate.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Wake Up Reality

i ended up accidentally falling asleep.
i got woken up with stressful news/an upset mom.
i started feeling really bad.
i got out a ruberband.
i went over my limit.
i dont want to sleep.
i dont want to eat.
i just want distractions.
           ... and a hot shower with green tea.

Happy Tree Friend Time

So last night I went to youth group and all my friends were there except for one because she was with her dad looking for a new rabbit because they starved the other one to death. It was nice getting to hang out and laugh and stuff. Jess spent the night. We watched The Office(bbc version), I painted both our nails, we talked about stuff, and fell asleep watching Happy Tree Friends on my bed together. I didn't sleep well at all though and all I want to do now is go home,drink tea,watch Supernatural (which I found out my Chemistry teacher also loves) and take a nap. However I am not allowed to take naps during the week and if I drink tea then I will exceed my calorie intake for today. So I plan on just going home and working out so I don't fall asleep. That way I can get it done early leaving the rest of my evening free.I possibly may go to bed early or watch the new episode of The Big Bang Theory or both:)

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Depression Please Cut To The Chase

   So I find myself not as gloomy the past two days.All of a sudden i feel better but I don't know how long it will last. My youth pastor spoke last Wednesday about taking control of our sins. If we don't recognize them and battle them they will take over and turn us into something that we will hate. That really spoke to me i guess and since then I've been trying to recognize the things trying to destroy me.
   Shelby is gone today. I love her and all but she keeps me from doing my work and always seems to have a negative attitude about everything.I struggle with that enough nowadays and I really don't need an extra dosage.
   I also have been thinking about keeping a journal.This blog is the closest thing i have but sometimes it's nice to pour my thought out on a piece of paper. I used to keep one until i found out that someone was reading it. Someday i think i will just write my thoughts and then burn them so no one will be able to read them.
   I also have started to watch Supernatural. I'ts pretty good.It's kinda scary too.There are about 140 episodes so that should keep me busy for awhile.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Coma Day

So I slept for pretty much the whole day and when i was awake i stayed in bed most of the time. It was really nice to be able to sleep and i probably would have kept sleeping if my mom didn't freak out and wake me up. I was haveing nice dreams too which never happens and I could actually remember them which was even more awesome! i finished watching the BBC version of the Office. now i don't know what to watch. Iv'e tried watching Supernatural but I can't get past the first episode. I also went with my mom to get ice cream while listening to old school Owl City. I saw The Impossible last night which was such a great film. but i advise not seeing it if you are squemish. while i was at the cinemas i got my friend a poster. she's reading some book i think it's called Safe House or something and they had free posters for the movie.

Friday, January 18, 2013


The darts keep coming at me.
He said it would happen.
This war in my head i wish would just end.
But the world works against believers.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Stall Me Stall Me

So I never thought it would take me 2 hours to figure out what new music I wanted on my iPod!So much for going to bed at a decent time.I do however have a new favorite dancey song called Under Cover Martyn by the Two Door Cinema Club.
now that i think of it the title reminds me of Martin Freeman.haha:)
I also got:

Wrecking Plans

so I'm thinking of working on my Wreck This Journal tonight.i feel the creativity coming back.maybe being artistic again will be the remedy. i doodled in class today and it was really nice to be able to just draw.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Getting Low

Dusk Collision

i was so happy that these turned out amazing! the last time i tried marbleing was forever ago and i couldn't get it to work.

Friday, January 4, 2013

Nostalgia Chemical Dream

I've never been so thankful for my own bed,my own home,and routine. I was with a friend for a couple days and school started again so it's nice to get back into the swing of things. I had a dream about Gerard Way last night. I don't remember much all I know is that I liked it. I remember around this time last year my best friend and I were obsessed with My Chemical Romance. I love them still but I tend to have phases that come and go. Right now it's been Owl City/Adam Young but he never really goes away. I'm planning on putting Sky Sailing lyrics on my ceiling. It's going to rock!Also It seems like everyone around me is getting boyfriends/girlfriends what's going on!?!?